10 years..

( we are missing a couple of peopel in the above photo)

A couple of weekends ago I went to my 10 year high school reinion. Whats that you say ?.... I dont look old enough to have graduated 10 years ago.

You make me blush!

Histroy:

I went to RCS ( Resurrection Christian School). We were a small school. I graduated with 19 other people. I love each and ever one of them.We went through high school together...If that doesn't build a bond for life I don't know what will. HA!

It was great to see everybody!We had a good time.

I had a tough time the last year and a half of high school. Its hard enough being an emotional , hormonal teenager then lets add one of my close friends dieing.It was hard, theirs were days when I didn't want to get out of bed, days where it would have been easier to die myself then have to live through another moment , there were days were there was cutting, suicidal thoughts and just plan not remembering how got anywhere cause I would just blank out. ( I didn't really start talking about what went on in that time in my life till about 2 years ago). The point of my telling all that sad stuff is this...The people I went to high school with, helped my get through my days with out ever knowing that they were helping me.( Jesus helped me too)

They hold a special place in my heart.I love seeing them whenever I can. I still have some very close relationships with some of the people I graduated with. I love the fact that I can still call people I went to high school with friends ten years later. Not many people can do that.

We were a rowdy bunch. All the rules were made for us. ALL OF THEM.We broke all of them too.We were good kids....but like I said..we were rowdy!

So here is to the class of 2000! I love ya!

30 Things

My pastor, Johnathan Martin, Gave us a challenge this week. We need to come up with 30 things we are thankful for. So here we go.( no particular order)

1.My family
2.My friends ( they are pretty great)
3.My job ( even if it does drive me crazy)
4.My car
5.My church
5.That I get to greet people every signal Sunday at my church :)
6.That my friends are dorks just like me
7.Books
8. comic books
9.Art
10. My favorite songs when they come up on my ipod when it on shuffle
11.My flowers at my front door.
12.When I get to spend time with my friends kids...there cute.
13.For still being alive
14.Food
15.Chocolate
16. airplanes
17.for beautiful places on this earth that I haven't even seen yet.
18.For early morning sunlight when it hits my curtains just right..and it make my room looks like its golden.
19.that I am not lonely anymore
20.For my CLG
21.Nutella
22.Fall ( the season)
23.Carved pumpkins
24.Memories
25.Road trips
26. Laughing so hard I cry
27.The perfect cup of coffee
28.Snoopy
29.For you :)
30.Tacos

What are you thankful for?

My life...in pictuers. People, place and things that I love.

Lately

Oh Gosh! Where to start…..I have been busy lately. I have changed positions at work, I have stepped up my responsibilities at the church I attend. There have been big changes at church. There have been changes going on in my friends lives as well. Every where I turn everything is different. I have a hard with change , see the thing about change is you cant control it, if you cant control it…it makes you uncomfortable. Who wants to be uncomfortable, no one that who!!!

This is something I am working out with the Lord. Well there are a lot of things I am working out with the Lord. Its tough work having a really honest relationship, no matter who it is with.

Moving on!! I got to hangout with two of my oldest and dearest friends this past weekend. Hannah and Annie. They have been around for over 20 years. WOW! We had a grand time talking and eating and hold little Chloe ( Annie had a little girl about 3 months ago). There really is nothing better in this world then setting around with old friends and just being together. Thanks girls for loving me all those years even when it wasn’t easy, you girls are always in my thoughts and I love you!

What else is going on….Work. Work is frustrating and different, confusing and challenging .I have had a rough couple of weeks with all the new stuff. I pray a lot cause I don’t understand a lot. It will get better with time ..it has too. I am getting to know the new people the make up the new group I am in. I like meeting new people.

Church! I have stepped in to some new responsibilities at church. That makes me nervous, to be in charge of something is scary!!!! But I have great leaders , so I know they will help me out if I need some. My church is also moving for a second time in one year. This time it is a little more permanent. I am excited about our new buildings.

Me in general lately….I have been frazzled, tired, stressed, emotional, not ok, not bouncing back, mad at God, whining, not willing to listen, hurt, pissed . At the same time I have been blessed and loved by a God who even when I want to push away never leaves me. See, me and God we are working some things out…its hard but its worth it in the long run. Enough about that.

In a couple of weeks I will be going to my 10 year high school reunion. Man!!! Times flies! I will let you know how it goes. ( I have to figure out something to wear….Ugh!!!)

So , there it is …. a lot of nothing but it means something to me.

I am still here

I haven't forgotten about this place. I have just been really busy!!!! I will tell you all about soon.

Tired

That's how I feel about life right now. I am a little run down and little sleep deprived.
I am spiritual worn out emotionally worn out and physically worn out.

I need a vacation. I need a road trip. I need some time with myself and more time with Jesus. I need some time in a bookstore. I need some time to catch my breathe. I need some time....

The reason I am so tired is because there is lot of change going on in my life. Spiritually, emotionally, even at work and church there is change. I told the Lord next time He chose to pour down change in my life that he need to give me some bucks to catch it in, cause I'm drowning here.....and not in a good way.

I hope I haven't scared you yet! Don't worry it will work it's self out.I know that there are people on this earth that have far worse situation they are going through. I don't think I have it bad off at all. It's just my season of struggle. Don't worry I have told Jesus how I feel about everything that is going.....we are working on it.

Faith

( This is a random blog but it sort of came to me out of no where!!! Sorry, if it doesn't make since. My question is...how do you feel about your FAITH??)


This thing we call FAITH is not for the faint of heart. The journey of FAITH is for the broken and the healed, the lost and the ones that have been found. FAITH is for the dismembered and for the put back together. Faith is for the hurt and the forgiven. This journey of FAITH is not for the maybes it is for the I have decided.FAITH is for the soldiers and the protesters.



FAITH is for the scared and delivered, for the used and set aside. Faith is for the claimed and conquered, it for the consecrated and for the disregarded. Faith is for the cutters and the depressed, the delivered and the ones that are still held captive.



FAITH is for the geek, the nerd, the liars, the dreamers and the misfits.



Its for white, black, Jew or gentile. This journey of FAITH is not for the faint of heart because this road is lined with the trail of the blood of the believers have gone before us. So, keep your Faith close at hand...... because it is something that should be prized, nourished and shared.